It seems like everyone is determined to love their family in spite of the hardships they might give, and I will always love them too. They are the ones who are the most loyal to me. I am also willing to love the musical instruments I can play, which are the violin and the piano. Sometimes I get the feeling that I just want to give up altogether, because it seems impossible to play it perfectly. But everytime I feel like quitting, I am motivated to pick up the instrument and start practicing again because I can't abandon the beautiful music it makes, and this has kept me from quitting music at times of hardships.

  I have not lived very long, so I don't have something or someone that I have deep devotion to. I love my family, my mother, my father, and my sister will support me till they die, and I am planning to do likewise for them. I think, whatever that you will devote yourself for the rest of your life will be your loving family. My family always were there for me when I am going through hardship, so I am guessing unless they wound me in a betrayal, or something along that line, I will love them in spite the hardships they might give.

 Well, of course, I love my sister. But sometimes, it's so hard to just love her and not get angry at her, because she always teases me like the fact that I'm fat or I didn't get good grades on the test. And the most hard thing is that she gives me orders, saying 'do this Thresa, do that Thresa and I got tired of that and I'm very sick of it. But, still, she's my sister and she cares about me so I can't stop loving her. And also, some of friends does not approve of me and talks bad things about me, and it really hurts me when some of my classmates do such things. But, friends sometimes fights and it is not good to dislike a friend so I guess that some of my friends are the persons that I am willing to love in spite of the hardships they might give.

I think my target conciousness is something that sometimes gives me happiness but in other times it makes me feel pressure or stress. When I am trying hard but it is hard to accomplish the goal, I become stressful and can't release my pent-up frustrations. But when I finish the quantity or much more than what I have planned, I feel pleased, satisfied, and proud.